February 2012
New progress pics up
No pw needed. I feel like I look fatter. Way too much cellulite.
Anonymous asked: I love you
So last night
I binged on pizza. Literally. Half of a 16” pizza. Felt like shit, tried to purge, couldn’t, got depressed and went all suicidal on my ex even though it is his birthday. Fell asleep finally weighing 129.0. Woke up and fought off a panic attack as I went to weigh myself after peeing. I weighed 126.8. What kind of tom foolery is this?! Whatever. I’m having my usual coffee now. Then...
If I could burn calories by over thinking, I'd...
a-heart-so-weak asked: I love yooooou. I love you I love you and please don't think that there's no negatives. I know it's hard but I promise there are pleeenty of downsides.
Honestly
See no negatives to suicide right now.
“im pretty sure no one would care if i left this world, im pretty sure it would...”
– (via youretheonlyoneimiss)
I never want to eat again.
Anonymous asked: No offence love but one pancake won't make you gain any real weight. I know you regret it but really it won't, to gain one pound you'd have to eat about 5000 calories, because your bmr will burn about 1500 a day anyway. One pancake won't make a difference. Promise xx
I was 127.6
Before I had to eat that fuckin pancake. That’s a new low. Guess that number will be going up. Fuck this.
Fuckkkk
I wake up and my sisters made pancakes. I wasn’t going to eat today! God fucking dammit.
